[[..prince.and.princess..]]

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2004-09-16T04:35:00.000-07:00

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2004-09-15T19:01:00.000-07:00

erm.. todae.. v free.. cos gortx lots ob free period.. heex.. lame.. sianxz.. todae nortx realli happi.. cos nth to do.. den my maths project haben even touch.. haix.. 30% bye bye le.. i hate maths~~!! stupid idiot maths.. sianx sianx..

den todae rt ask mi go someone de chalet.. i v excited to go de.. just wan to go de.. but den i dun like my mama.. so angry.. she sae tml gortx sch.. dun gib mi go.. i realli v sad.. disappointed.. i realli wan to go.. realli got the feelin to go lorx.. haix.. tao yan my family le.. haix..

den i todae neber go pao pu.. cos i was preparing to go the chalet.. but ended up in disappointment.. haix.. mux act like the those on tv.. Y MY MING SO KU?? haix.. heex.. lame.. putting up a smile.. to tell myself i am okie..

den todae go home tat time.. i saw her.. den she go home wid mie.. lucky.. cos she is abt to go wid dem.. i scare she become them liddat.. neber expect myself to be so concern abt her.. mayb i regard her as a good fren bahx..

decided to make a gift myself.. but lazy worx.. heex.. i try my best lorx.. heex..

[[gan.xiang]] sometimes those u might assume to be of the least importance.. might be the most important or the one u might cry wen they leave u de..

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2004-09-13T20:07:00.000-07:00

erm.. todae.. a bit sick sick.. cos a bit flu flu.. haiyo.. but mama gib mi eat panadol.. but when i wan orh orh.. trevor cor.. but hp spoilt.. cannot pick up.. den dey cor my house.. haiyo.. den dey sae something serious.. ask mi go down to cp.. i so worried.. den quick quick go cp.. haix.. i tot it was a joke.. but it turn out to be true..

den i see her go.. i am sad.. but didnt show it.. i am realli sad.. i wanna cry.. but held back my tears.. den i went home.. sad and lonely.. but somehow i got the urge to jog.. so i went home change and went jogging.. all by myself.. den i felt better.. i got home once again.. and i receive a call from her mother.. she sae she wasnt back.. i worried again.. but i didnt tell the truth.. i noe auntie is gonna be upset.. i didnt sae.. i dun wan her to be upset.. mayb she will have a better way to tell.. i dunno..

sad and loneliness filled my dae.. i dunno wad to do.. guilty by all my lies.. i hate myself for tat.. i hope nth will happen to her... through she isnt v close to mi sometimes.. i still treated her as my best fren.. i realli dun wish anything to happen.. her mom in darkness.. i wish and hope and pray for the best.. haix..

[[gan.xiang]] miss you.. it hab been one dae.. n i had realise u r the onli one dat i can tok to.. xiang ni..

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2004-09-03T19:04:00.000-07:00

oh.. holidae le.. haix.. but might as well dun hab tis holidae.. erm.. quite busy in tis holidae.. but i nortx going for the enrichment programme so 3 daes free for mi.. heex..

erm.. my blog is still in a mess.. dunno how to make it nicer.. just doesnt hab the talent in making all tis computer stuff.. but xiang xiang.. i ain't good in anything else either.. haix.. sadistix.. wad can i sae.. failure..

erm.. yesterdae.. saw ty and ros at cp.. ty look quite normal.. dunno whether she is makin it up or realli she is alright.. all tat i noe is tat she look great in wadeva she wear.. envy.. haix.. den ros look a bit off form.. dunno lehx.. like a bit tired.. den like the soul not wid her liddat.. dey were wid a whole bunch ob bois.. hope they noe wad they r doin.. dun wish to see dem regret wad they did one dae.. haix.. all the best bahx..

erm.. totally normal dae.. everything were fine.. n i hab nth to sae.. =)

[[..gan.xiang..]] turn back look again.. would u regret wad u hab done ten years later?? ib ur ans is no.. hope tat ur ans is right.. but ib ur ans is yes.. do u still wan urself to regret??

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2004-09-01T21:54:00.000-07:00

erm.. todae went orchard wid a big big polo tee and my jeanx.. heex.. haiyo.. wear til so ugly.. went watch movie.. no money still watch movie.. haiyo.. heex.. den mum mum bk de hersey sundae pie.. hmm.. yum yum.. n onion rings.. wahx.. heex..

now.. mum muming maggie mee.. wahx.. heex.. gonna get fat le.. cham.. haiyo.. suddenly gortx the urge to pai zhao.. heex.. wan pai zhao.. gortx lots of pose worx.. heex.. bleahx..

k norhx.. end here bahx.. ~~tataxz~~

2004-08-31T00:32:00.000-07:00

[[..act.cute..]]

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2004-08-31T00:04:00.000-07:00

erm.. new blogskin.. nice nice.. heex.. long long no write le.. heex.. cos my last time de blogskin v ugly worx.. heex.. so now change le.. but horx,, still under construction.. heex.. bleahx..

todae is teachers' dae.. happy happy.. dun nid study.. tml holidae.. YEAHX~~!! heex.. teachers happi.. i also happi.. bleahx.. erm.. den todae nth to do.. tink go orh orh bahx.. bleahx.. heex.. end here lorx..

bye bye.. heex..

...[[erm..hmm]]...

2004-07-24T11:22:00.000-07:00

erm erm.. todae.. normal little prettiee cuttiiee dae bahx.. a bit cloudy.. a bit dark.. cooling little weather.. hmm..

yesterdae was a great dae.. papa tok to mi le~~~!!! YEAHxz~~!! can u imagine the happiness?? haix.. so happi.. e kind ob happi is like.. when a little girl get a doll.. tat happiness norhx.. noe?? understand?? heex.. den yesterdae tidy my little messy ugly room.. now becum little neatiiee cuttiee room.. whahaha.. need quite a bit of effort.. heex..

den just now went see cl de blog.. so stylo.. so nice.. mine stupid little blog.. so ugly.. haiyo.. just dun hab the talent in computer stuff.. ha.. heex..

yesterdae.. notice my journal.. on my table.. (cos i go pack my table..) but i tot i put in the cupboard le.. den i go flip.. my mummy wrote sth again.. =) haben manage to read finish.. heex.. but i read halfwae.. as usual cry again.. heex.. touching little stuffs..

[[gan.xiang]] appear to be strong.. but i am just a tiny little ger.. all i nid is just bit n bits ob love..

[[..dortx.dortx.dortx..]]

2004-07-21T18:23:00.000-07:00

haix.. haben manage to get my fone back yet.. sad.. just hate myself for being so dumb.. stupid.. haix.. dun tok abt tis le.. damn sad.. forget abt it bahx.. i am doin great without my fone..

erm.. my blog.. long time neber change its skin le.. didnt find anything dat look damn cute or nice de.. so just hab to keep to tis for some time bahx.. but change the song worx.. tis song is stupid cupid.. by mandy moore.. from princess diary de worx.. quite nice worx.. erm.. to make my blog not so boring.. decided to change the song more often.. heex..

erm.. yesterdae he suddenly msg mi.. tink he send wrong msg bahx.. or just prank.. but anyway i got a shock.. erm.. dunno.. just shock.. erm.. den i fa xian she like him worx.. dunno.. or sae admire?? i dunno.. zhen de bu zhi dao.. erm.. just a prince and a princess.. prince should alwaes go wid a princess.. yi ding mux liddat de.. but wad if a princess hab two prince?? how?? princess's blessin?? or her sufferin?? complicated.. but tis dun involve mi.. so y do i care?? cos i k-po.. ha..

erm.. dunno y.. whenever i write my blog.. i will sad sad de nehx.. haiyo.. mayb my life is full of sadness bahx.. dunno dunno dunno..

[[gan.xiang]] erm.. prince and princess.. how sweet.. heex.. but i will neber be the princess.. =) but i happy le.. cos i can see how sweet a princess and prince can be.. princess.. prince.. yi ding shi xing fu de.. heex..

[[..::happi.little.dae::..]]

2004-07-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

todae.. i go shop shop wid my best pal... heex.. quite happi.. but spend quite a lorx.. heex.. erm.. i bought a jeans.. den a bag.. so tinking of getting a top.. so hab to save up lorx.. heex..

erm.. sianx.. so tired.. den haben do hwk nehx.. heex.. so huai dan.. heex.. but i lazy lehx.. dun wanna do.. tml got fnn practical somemore.. heex.. looking forward.. lub cooking.. heex.. but i dun wan maths nehx..

erm.. todae she look totally different.. change worx.. image.. style.. everything bahx.. heex.. nice change actualli.. as for mi.. i am in the changing process too.. heex.. but i mux save up money to change my image.. i wan be a pretty ger.. heex.. but is it possible?? nortx sure.. try lorx..

erm.. sianx sianx.. nth to do worx.. heex.. later go pom pom le jiu orh orh le.. heex.. sian sian..

erm.. let mi put moi wish list here bahx.. heex.. i dunno how to put in my blog worx.. anyone noe?? teach mi.. tankkiie..

[[gan.xiang]] forget abt wad is unhappi.. can carry on wid my life is the tink i can do to make mi happi bahx..

[[::..wishlist..::]]

lucido hair styling clay
demin ruffles skirt
cute retro shoes
sally hansen french manicure set
giodano top
boum perfume
eyebrow contouring
tamagochi

--=[[haix..sad.sad.sad]]=--

2004-07-15T03:43:00.000-07:00

todae.. yesterdae.. and yesterdae de yesterdae was a tragic.. a sad stupid n f***ing dae.. haix.. sad.. HATE SKOOL~~!! dun wan skool le lahx.. haix..

let mi start.. yesterdae de yesterdae.. stupid skool.. suddenly gort stupid spot check.. for no reason.. the whole sec 1 n 3 kanna.. and for no reason.. sec 2 n 4 dun nid.. idiot.. den e stupid idiot mie zhi dong take out my stupid fone n let the stupid skool de cher confiscate.. haix.. HATE MYSELF.. neber expect myself to be so damn idiot stupid.. luff at my stupidness bahx.. i deserve to be luff.. idiot stupid fa**in mie!! haix..

den yesterdae de yesterdae go back hm.. tell my mummy.. hp kanna confiscated.. den she start yellin at mi.. sae wad y i bring to skool.. den sae i change wid my fren for wad?? den now how to return?? haix.. den sae i gib her attitude.. haix.. but i just walk out from her room nia lorx.. haix.. den i go my room cry cry cry.. cry till sleep.. den nxt morning le.. neber eat my dinner.. tink the whole dae i no eat.. haix..

den i wake up.. den i forget to wash my contacts.. den my eyes swollen.. den i decided to wear spects.. haix.. den wear lorx.. den my mood is damn low for the whole fa**in dae.. haix.. den i no tok.. den i hardly smile.. den i tink i scold quite a lot of ppl dat dae.. haix.. sorri.. i just not in good mood dat's all.. haix.. den go home.. den sleep.. den till morning..

den i wake up.. quite early.. i v guilty for venting my anger at ppl.. so i decided to smile e whole dae.. so i tried to be happy.. i smile the whole dae.. i dunno whether am i realli happi nortx.. haix.. den i tot my mummy gonna get back the fone le.. cos she sae she cuming todae to collect.. den i went home after remedial.. den she sae she didnt get back.. she sae mr lee dun let.. cos my mummy told him tat fone nortx mine.. is his.. so she sae mr lee need to check.. wad the?? haix.. none of his business lorx.. haix.. den i also dunno wad to do.. i so fan~~!! tink i go bang wall.. den nth can bother mi le.. haix.. i am so tired.. go sleep le.. haix.. better if i dun wake up..

[[gan.xiang]] i am actually the stupidest.. dumbest.. lame idiot living in tis planet.. can't believe it.. haix.. HATE MYSELF~~!!

--=[[..splendid..]]=--

2004-07-12T05:11:00.000-07:00

just now.. go watch mean gers.. it was great.. marvellous.. splendid~~!! my goodness.. so nice lorx.. i mean the gers were chio.. the story was okie.. ( mayb a bit lame?? ) heex.. great overall.. erm.. wanna find out who is the main lead.. she is so damn chio.. bleahx.. heex.. but.. spent 10.50 worx.. xin tong tong.. haix.. dunno when am i gonna save the money to get tat fone.. haix.. xiang dao jiu sad..

todae.. got practical.. fnn de.. erm.. a bit pissed off at 1st.. cos the guys neber bring their ingredients.. and one even dunno there is practical and didnt bring his apron.. haiyo.. but fang and kel manage to get all the ingredients wid the help ob their dad.. thanks bahx.. erm.. den the dishes turned out to be fine.. but mine is somehow too dry.. haiyo.. i am a bad cook.. budden cher onli mark on the presentation.. and the other group got full marks.. cos the prepare shooo much.. wad candles.. tablecloth.. everything.. even flowers lorx.. haiyoo..

todae.. papa still bo chap mi.. haix.. is kinda sad.. no.. is super duper sad.. i dun like tis papa of mine le.. haix.. i dun even noe wad he is mad about.. haix.. mayb i gonna ask mummy one of tis dae.. but mummy didnt seem to like mi either.. everytime scold mi.. even todae i go watch movie.. she sae wad i not gonna gib u money horx.. den i was tinking tat.. i neber even ask for ur money lorx.. i am using my money lorx.. den i didnt sae anytink and walk away.. haix.. wad hab i done to my family?? haix.. erm.. even my mum also liddat.. who can i trust now?? i am all alone in tis stupid idiotic world?? haix.. ib i am.. i would just wish to leave.. u understand how it feel to be ignore?? haix.. is like where ever u go.. u might just burst out crying.. n i nearly burst out crying in the public cos of tis.. but i somehow control my tears.. haix..

todae.. i am suppose to go out wid my best fren actually de.. but my frens ask whether wanna watch mean gers mahx.. den i rmb she wrote in her blog she gonna watch.. so i dunno whether she watch le mahx.. so i told her y nortx go out in weekend.. den she neber reply le.. erm.. dunno she angry mahx?? haix.. such a failure.. failure.. haix.. mux sae sorry.. haix.. dui bu qi worx..

yesterdae.. i went out wid my ex classmate.. to return her her clothes and fone.. haiyo.. she so chio.. stand beside her.. so pai seh.. ppl's eyes will move wid her de norhx.. haiyo.. but quite happi.. cos can make mi forget the sadness for a moment.. haix..

next week.. got two shows worx.. one is 13 going on 30.. another one is ella enchanted bahx.. tink will be nice also.. i wan watch.. but haiyo.. money~~ where find?? haix.. y liddat..?? haix..

[[gan.xiang]] quote from mean gers : "scolding ppl stupid dun make u any smarter.. scolding ppl fat dun me make u any skinner.." so i tink i should fan xing fan xing bahx.. haix.. so tinking i am sad.. dun make mi any happier.. mayb i should just forget abt everytink and move on bahx..

--=[[..bdae.over..]]=--

2004-07-10T08:15:00.000-07:00

sianx.. over le.. all over.. i am 15 le.. but sad.. every year older.. every year getting.. drifting farther away from papa.. mama.. didi.. kor kor.. everybody.. sad sad.. haix.. y everytime sad?? wanna be happi.. but seems impossible for now..

tis isn't the orignal mi..?? isn't it?? or is it my true self?? haix.. i am alwaes happi go lucky de mahx.. how cum becum liddat..?? haix.. smiley turn to a feelinless face haix..

todae.. mummy sae i v wad.. cos everytime go out neber tell papa.. is disrepecting him.. but everytime i tell him.. he bo chap mi.. so wad is the use?? he dun respect mi in the 1st place de norhx.. haix.. mi n papa~~ y becum liddat?? i rmb when i am still a ger.. papa love mi lots.. also dote mi v much de.. everytime on bus.. i fall asleep.. papa will bao wo.. haix.. now.. i dun even hab a chance to sit on bus wid papa.. even ib hab.. we dun even tok.. haix.. i realli lub him de norhx.. but y he dun wan mi le..?? i noe i not good ger.. but i tried to be one le.. mayb not up to his expectation bahx.. haix.. ib i can turn back time.. i would wish i am still a ger.. a ger dat papa love.. nortx now.. a ger dat papa dun even give a damn.. haix.. somehow i tink papa like disown mi liddat.. haix.. like dun wan mi le.. haix.. i dun wan liddat.. dun wan.. but haix.. sad~~..

den.. my best fren... like so far away from mi.. n somehow.. i tink she tink i hab my own circle ob frens.. den neber contact her.. but i dun.. i am just buildin a wall.. a barrier to prevent ppl from cumin in.. cos i am afraid to lost everyone again.. haix.. is tis stewpid/? i dunno.. but i really can't afford to lose my loved one anymore.. haix..

k bahx.. end here.. v tired le.. sad dae.. sad discovery.. disappointed facts.. disappointed feelin..

[[gan.xiang]] ppl dumpin mi alone in tis world?? no.. is i abandoning everyone outside my heart.. sad tink yea??

[[..::..b'dae..::..]]

2004-07-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

heex.. todae shooooooo happi.. ben lai morning a bit sian sianx de.. budden.. heex.. reach sch.. my fren came wid a big big PURPLE hippo.. heex.. i shooo happy.. den still gort small small soft toys.. haax.. so happi..

den he gib mi a cake n a watch.. wah liew.. expensive nehx.. swatch de nehx~~!! stylo.. can flip lai flip qu.. so fun.. stylo worx.. haiyo.. love it.. but horx.. i tink returning back to him.. cos beli ex.. haiyo.. den still gortx a slice of cute cake.. haben eat.. too cute le.. bu she de mum mum.. heex.. haiyo.. so happi worx..

but horx.. i sad sad todae also.. my mummy todae keep askin where my money gone to.. den i told her.. wid my fren.. den she keep nag nag nag.. haix.. den she neber buy cake or wad for mi.. kor kor bdae she gort buy clothes for him.. di di bdae gort cake.. mine?? nth.. haix.. hen sad.. lyk i am just invisible.. haix.. i am for the least importance.. just upset... but she cook a bowl ob mian sian.. heex.. delicious.. haix.. but my papa.. haix.. hen sad.. ta hao xiang dun care about mi norhx.. sad jiu dui le.. haix.. hate myself.. so tao ren yan.. even my family members also dun like mi.. haix..

haix.. end here lorx..

tankiiee to all whu wish mi happi bdae.. lub u all.. heex..

[[gan.xiang]] too bad.. being such a tao ren yan de ren dun deserve such good treatment.. haix..

[[..::..2.daes..::..]]

2004-07-07T05:36:00.000-07:00

haix.. 2 more daes to a sad sad dae.. a dae which i come to tis unreasonable but lovely place.. haix.. which hab lots of sufferings.. but at the same time create lots of happines.. haix.. sad.. but for mi.. i count myself lucky.. cos dere is still ppl who remember moi bdae.. haix.. but y am i feelin so sad..?? isn't tat a good tink??

yesterdae.. i ask mummy whether can sponsor a bit money for my hp.. cos she sae my bdae cannot celebrate cos no money.. haix.. den she ans mi so harshly.. she sae wad "wo hen fan le.. ni hai yao liddat.." den i sae back "wo ye fan lorx.." haix.. hate myself for being so rude.. but somehow.. disappointed.. i tot mummy would spare a minute to tink before she answer.. mayb i wouldn't be so sad bahx.. haix..

sianx.. fridae gortx skool.. cannot go gai gai.. haixz.. haixz.. lots to complain.. haixz.. sad.. sadistic.. nth else to sae.. HATE MYSELF..

[[gan.xiang]] babies cries when dey 1st stepped to tis world.. cos dey noe dey r gonna suffer.. haixz..

[[..tired.dae..]]

2004-07-06T03:39:00.000-07:00

todae.. shooo tired.. during lesson dun even hab the mood to studiiee.. keep sleeping.. i tot i sick... or say i hope i sick.. but i no sick worx.. haix.. den i neber do maths worx.. den mr koh soooo angry.. scold scold scold.. den kanna punish copy 2 times the whole assignment.. den i so tired.. till i no mood to do.. den i copy questions onli.. haben do.. heex.. so bad.. tml sure kanna scolding de.. haix.. i tink i veri bad lorx.. cos mr koh is quite a nice cher.. den i am just simply lazy.. n tat i hab no interest in maths..

i hate maths~~!! stupid formula.. stupid everything.. idiotic.. haix.. but this stupid environment i am living in treat maths so importantly.. n i hab no choice but to studiiee.. n the worst tink isn't tis.. the worst is my favorite subject isn't of any importance.. haix.. sad.. y isn't chinese as important as maths?? or y can't chinese replace english..?? haix.. sad sad.. hate everytink.. hope to abandon everytink.. n flee away from stress.. haax.. dat impossible.. haix..

sianx.. todae so mani hwk.. dunno wan do nortx.. gort zhuo wen.. maths.. physic.. sianx.. physic i dun do.. cos i dun understand physic.. maths i tink i will try.. zhuo wen.. i dun hab gao zi.. dunno write on wher worx.. haix.. i tired... i scare i lazy.. later dun do again.. haix.. y i so lazy..?? veri wad lorx.. hate myself.. ib i hardworking den i will hab better grade mahx.. y i dun wan be hardworking nehx?? but i try nortx to be lazy le.. but fail everytime after a few daes.. haix.. sad.. stupid mi..

yesterdae.. go out wid my frens.. v fun worx.. dey go out dun nid bring money de.. haiyo.. hen hao wan lorx.. dey go here go dere.. heex.. but i somehow like beli xtra.. cos dunno dem tat well.. but v fun lorx.. dey horx.. haiyo.. den late late go home.. cos their frens cuming to meet dem when we r abt to go home.. heex.. hope to go out wid dem gain.. (ib u readin.. i noe u will "sianx diaoxz" again.. but i dun wan listen to u.. cos ib i will be huai den i will be huai.. ib i am guai.. i will remain guai no matter wad.. i noe u will wad again.. budden..) but.. also seldom gortx chance to go out wid dem..

yesterdae.. on the road.. a ger approach us.. den ask us to buy wad membership thingy.. den she tok tok.. promote promote halfway.. she ask mi whether we gort see b4.. i dun remember mahx.. den i sae no.. den she sae i look familiar.. den i tink till now still hab no idea whether i got see her b4 not.. heex.. stupid mind.. n horx.. i got so common de face mehx?? everytime ppl ask whether we got see b4 mahx?? haiyo..

todae.. someone tell mi tat i wan tat fone no good.. cos the pixel no good.. the colour will fade.. den all tat.. den i shaken le.. i dunno wan buy nortx liaox.. but i wan change fone.. so mayb i still buy.. but ib realli no good.. den i change again lorx.. even though i noe i no money lahx.. haix.. but.. heex.. and also my mummy will kill mi ib after i buy tat fone.. i still change again.. bleahx.. heex..

<> laziness is a disease tat hab no cure.. haix..

[[..precious.tinks..]]

2004-07-03T20:15:00.000-07:00

todae.. i early early wake up.. den.. i sit on moi bed.. tink tink de.. staring in the space.. somehow feelin lonely.. sianx sianxz.. auntie no call mi work.. no money le.. haixz.. but auntie v good.. yesterdae she gib mi extra 10 bucks.. cos late late le.. she ask mi take cab.. but i save the money.. i take bus.. haax.. but todae no work.. haixz.. 30 bucks fly awae le..

todae.. ur email.. i read le.. xie xie ni.. hen gao xin u r my fren.. haiyo.. zhen de.. long long time ago wo jiu noe u r a good fren.. haiyo.. just tat i neber zhen xi ni.. =).. it's a blessing to noe u.. thanks lotx.. xie xie.. haax.. ai si ni le.. hahax.. but as a fren.. dun tink y-y.. heex..

todae.. morning.. i so angry.. my stewpid brothers wan watch kid central.. den i wan watch channel u.. den they snatch the tebe.. toopid.. so angry.. den i cannot watch.. den i scold them.. herxz.. toopid.. so angry.. argh~~

yesterdae.. i late late reach home worx.. cos i late late fang gong mahx.. den i go pom pom.. den i go to my room.. den i so clumsy yesterdae.. i dropped the powder.. den my whole room so slippery.. stewpid lorx.. i so angry at my clumsiness.. den mummy ask mi off the lights.. den i dunno y i switch off the fan.. i so idiot lorx.. ben de lehx.. haiyo.. dunno y i liddat.. mayb i lei lei bahx.. heex..

todae.. dunno later wad to do.. i dun wan rot at home.. but horx.. i dun wan splurge moi money also.. stewpid.. so i dunno do wad.. mayb i go orh orh.. den wun rot also wun splurge.. heex.. li hai de idea.. bleahx.. so cannot blame mi for being a pig.. haax.. finding excuses again.. i am a BIG RETARDED IDIOT CLUMSY STUPID PIG.. whahaha..

<> frens.. precious tinks u can find in this world.. provide u wid a shelter when u need one.. provide u warmth when u feel cold.. provide u a BIG BIG SMILE when ur face is covered wid tears.. i lub all my frens.. even ib one dae u were to forget mi..

[[..sad.happi.sleepy.energetic.]]

2004-07-02T06:47:00.000-07:00

sianx daex.. stewpid.. todae.. so sleepy.. sleep durin recess.. lei lei worx.. todae.. morning.. rain big big.. but i go sch dat time drizzlin onli.. sianx sianx.. i wan big big rain de.. but actualli i wan big big rain when i am indoor.. dunno y i enjoy lookin out of the window when it is rainin.. love it.. a kind of feelin.. somehow familar.. somehow linking to mi.. heex.. but i dun like gettin wet in the rain.. erm.. sometimes still like bahx.. heex..

den todae lunch dat time i go down gib back him the bread.. i dun wan eat.. but he like angry liddat.. den bu li wo de.. den he dun take.. den i jiu put outside his class.. den i walk off.. cannot deny.. i am angry.. somehow pissed offx.. but he later tell mi he angry ob sth.. but dun wan tell mi wad.. mayb cos ob mi bahx.. bleahx.. den i also angry norhx.. den i bu li ta about half dae.. heex.. bleahx.. but den hai shi ok le.. heex..

yesterdae ar.. i saw something bu gai kan dao de.. tat msg.. haix.. sad sad.. ppl got ppl care mahx.. den i no hab.. so i angry.. veri xiao qi worx.. haiyo.. i horx.. even i also shuo bu liao myself.. somehow hate myself.. hate~~ myself~~

todae.. i go home straight after school.. den i mum mum.. den i go orh orh le.. heex.. so zhu.. i tired worx.. haiyo.. now veri cham.. everyone sae i am a blur pig dat sleep everytime.. haiyo.. realli mehx?? but ib i sleep enough.. y i still hab eye bag?? haiyo.. stewpid.. but i blur mehx?? heex.. a bit onli mahx.. not alot mahx.. heex..

todae.. download lotx of songs.. nice nice.. heex.. enjoy listenin to songs.. heex.. lub it.. but neber hab the talent to sing well.. haix.. den i think liang jing ru sing v well worx.. her song v nice.. haiyo.. lub it worx..

todae.. miss the fone.. neber hab the chance to hab it.. haix.. den i told mummy i want save money buy fone.. den she nag nag nag.. sae wad got fone le still wan buy.. den sae wad y dun u go buy all those necessary stuff.. but i use moi money mahx.. i wan buy fone mahx.. haix.. den i told mummy i wan work.. den i start lookin at classified ad like crazie.. den found none.. den miracle happen.. auntie called mi.. ask mi tml wan work mahx.. ob cos wan lahx.. heex.. miracle ryht?? heex..

<> feelin complicated.. total mess.. sometime u just didnt noe how to figure out wad is feelin.. cos.. it is the strangest but most unique tink abt humanx..

[[..`..prince..princess..paradise..`..]]

2004-06-30T04:36:00.000-07:00

[[..CHAPTER 1..]]

todae.. i am gonna tell u a story.. a fairy tale.. characters: princess.. prince.. setting: somewhere call paradise.. and somewhere call hell.. there it goes..

once upon a time.. there is a place called paradise.. tis place is a paradise.. tis paradise will take the shape of anyone idea of a paradise.. (u dun understand..? example: if ur idea of a paradise is above the cloud.. den it will be above the cloud.. understand..??)

in tis paradise.. everytink were perfect.. (human alwaes hope tat a paradise is perfect)
no one were ever sad.. unhappy.. or disappointed.. no one ever cry.. no one ever argue.. everybody in the paradise were happy.. smiley.. wid no worries.. peace everywhere.. evil have no place to be in tis paradise.. in the dae children were playing.. women were doin their chores.. men working.. life is wonderful..

however.. things dun come perfectly.. there is a place called hell.. tis place is a hell.. tis place will take the shape of anyone idea of hell..

in tis hell.. everytink just isn't goin right.. veri wrong in the other words.. no one were ever happy.. glad.. or contented.. everyone cried everydae.. everyone argue over little things.. even buying a fish in the market.. even walkin on the road.. evil were everywhere.. leaving no place for peace.. no peace..

there is a high, tall wall separating the two extreme location.. nobody noe wad is behind the wall.. it was tall till the sky.. it seems no end to it.. no one ever wan to noe wad is behind it.. till den... ...

in paradise.. there is a palace.. a great grand palace.. (just like any fairy tale..) king and queen ruled it wid care and concern.. the ppl there.. were satisfy.. or sae glad to hab them as the rulers.. they hab a daughter.. a pretty princess.. named crystal.. she is just like the crystals.. shiny.. sparklin.. so beautiful..

in hell.. there is also a palace.. a dark but grand palace.. n the king and queen ruled the hell.. king and queen of hell do not need to do anything about it.. becos it is hell.. they hab a prince.. a violence but handsome prince.. named evil.. he is evil.. he resolve everything by using violence.. kill.. torture.. simply a devil..

tis prince is curious about wad is behind that tall high wall.. he is determine to find out.. he is tinkin to break the wall down.. the wall is just to strong.. seem to hab certain power.. evil tried everything.. dug it.. hit it.. every ways.. but to nothing.. he just can't get to break the tall.. high wall.. but he didnt wan to give up.. he is overwhelmed by curiousity.. so.. he decide to climb.. climb to the highest and tallest point..

he climb.. climb.. 1 dae.. 2 daes.. go on and on.. he is exhausted.. he is hungry.. but something seems to call out for him.. so he just go on.. 3 daes.. 4 daes.. till the 5th dae.. he reach.. reach the highest.. tallest point of the wall.. the tip.. he is happy.. contented.. a feelin he neber hab b4.. heavenly feelin.. (it is the power of peace and love dat cos the feelin) he was surprise.. shocked.. he didnt believe wad he saw.. smiley faces.. he rubbed his eyes.. "is this heaven?", he wondered.. den he saw crystal the princess.. the beautiful eyes.. the white but not pale skin.. the silky and black hair.. just perfect.. for one second.. their eyes met.. till den.. evil was too tired.. he fell.. straight down..
~end of chapter 1~

heex.. nice mahx?? heex.. i gonna write chapter 2 soon.. heex..

[[..haix..sad arh~~!!..]]

2004-06-28T21:37:00.000-07:00

todae.. sch reopen.. haix.. sianx diaoxz.. dun wan studiiee.. dunno y shox sianx.. studiiee also hab no future.. wad can i do?? but i wan lots of moneySS~!! i wan buy everytink i wan.. i dun wan to see everytink i lyk but cannot buy.. i hate habing tis ke lian de gan jue.. stupid lorx.. haix.. hen sad jiu shi le..

todae.. i go fone shop see fone.. (handphone) haix.. i wan change fone.. but den.. haix.. i no money.. birthdae cuming.. den i wan tell mummy ask her sponsor some money.. but dare not ask.. cos she everytime sae wad papa work not stable.. haix.. i also noe.. dat is y i didnt ask.. but den i zhen de yao tat fone norhx.. wo hen despo.. but no money i can do nothing.. haix.. tis mth de hp bill i also mux fork out to pay.. haix.. tat is how bad my family finance is going.. i feel so guilty of having this desire at tis moment.. but i can't stop it.. i love tat fone.. haix.. how i wish i hab all the money i wan.. so i can hab everything i wan..

todae.. feelin low.. down.. wid all the stupid idiot feeling all mixed up.. burning desire for a new hp.. feeling of loneliness in tis big big environment.. feelin of being dumped by every single human beings living in this world.. how sad?? haix.. wid no one tat understand mi.. clingin on to others like a pest.. irritating everyone.. haix.. dat is wad i am?? just sad.. sad.. sad..

haix.. my frens all like hab lots of money.. they hab everything they wan.. for mi.. even i work my money never seem to exceed them.. admiration.. jealousy.. haix.. y am i in this situation?? they can be as prettie as they wan.. for mi.. i will never be like tat.. haix.. sadistic.. seem like i am just a stupid human being living in tis world bahx..

end le.. dun wish to tok about all tis le.. seal up.. dumped away.. leaving it behind my head.. stupid dae wid stupid thoughts.. haix..