sianx.. over le.. all over.. i am 15 le.. but sad.. every year older.. every year getting.. drifting farther away from papa.. mama.. didi.. kor kor.. everybody.. sad sad.. haix.. y everytime sad?? wanna be happi.. but seems impossible for now..

tis isn't the orignal mi..?? isn't it?? or is it my true self?? haix.. i am alwaes happi go lucky de mahx.. how cum becum liddat..?? haix.. smiley turn to a feelinless face haix..

todae.. mummy sae i v wad.. cos everytime go out neber tell papa.. is disrepecting him.. but everytime i tell him.. he bo chap mi.. so wad is the use?? he dun respect mi in the 1st place de norhx.. haix.. mi n papa~~ y becum liddat?? i rmb when i am still a ger.. papa love mi lots.. also dote mi v much de.. everytime on bus.. i fall asleep.. papa will bao wo.. haix.. now.. i dun even hab a chance to sit on bus wid papa.. even ib hab.. we dun even tok.. haix.. i realli lub him de norhx.. but y he dun wan mi le..?? i noe i not good ger.. but i tried to be one le.. mayb not up to his expectation bahx.. haix.. ib i can turn back time.. i would wish i am still a ger.. a ger dat papa love.. nortx now.. a ger dat papa dun even give a damn.. haix.. somehow i tink papa like disown mi liddat.. haix.. like dun wan mi le.. haix.. i dun wan liddat.. dun wan.. but haix.. sad~~..

den.. my best fren... like so far away from mi.. n somehow.. i tink she tink i hab my own circle ob frens.. den neber contact her.. but i dun.. i am just buildin a wall.. a barrier to prevent ppl from cumin in.. cos i am afraid to lost everyone again.. haix.. is tis stewpid/? i dunno.. but i really can't afford to lose my loved one anymore.. haix..

k bahx.. end here.. v tired le.. sad dae.. sad discovery.. disappointed facts.. disappointed feelin..

[[gan.xiang]] ppl dumpin mi alone in tis world?? no.. is i abandoning everyone outside my heart.. sad tink yea??